New Year 2011

Ryan, I have to say, I have procrastinated in writing this card. But then I sat down, and I realized its pretty simple actually, you my dear, have the power to leave me speechless (see, you have powers too =]). But in all honesty, all of this, you.. me.. each moment that I've spent with you.. it's been so unexpected that I'm just in awe. You never cease to leave me in amazement and wonder and.. well, happiness. The thing is, I've never been this happy. This constant feeling of happiness and love.. these past three months have opened my eyes to love and to you and to getting to know how amazing you are. This year didn't start out as I planned and isn't going to end as I probably would have expected. And I think that's the wonder of it all, that the best things in life really are unexpected. I have you to thank for all of this. You have opened my eyes and made me believe in something I thought I would never let myself believe in. It's been the reason I have kept myself from believing in words like always and forever... it's the reason I get scared. Because I'm scared of the risk of losing myself in one person and then having the risk of getting my heart broken. But then I see you, and I forget it all. When I'm around you I feel like I'm home, I feel warm, I feel safe in your arms... I feel happy. And I really want you to know that though I doubt the future because of its uncertainty... because we both have no idea if we're gonna be together in the end, one thing is for sure, I'll do everything I can to make it happen. I love you... remember this. And I can't wait to start this new year with you. Plus, I can't wait for all the new accents you're going to come up with (might I add, at the wrong times, and probably while trying to imitate other accents *shakes head). So I leave you in one of of your accents.. hmm.. maybe you're Sottish one aiming to be a Shakespearean one? "Alas, I bid you adieu" and I wish you a Happy New Year love. .. (with me, of course =]). *beso Love, Athleen