Scared

I'm not scared that we're going to be with each other. I'm not psyched out or freaked out or spooked that he wants me "to be the mother of [his] children." I'm not scared because I want those exact things. I want to be with him, to have a family with him. I want all of it, as long as its with him. What scares me the most is that those things may not happen. I get upset or I hesitate to be happy to hear those things from him because I'm scared that one day he might wake up and not feel the same way anymore. That one day he changes his mind and I'm going to be that same girl who had her hopes and dreams and love and heart put into the dreams and ideals that come with being or thinking you're in love. I'm scared that one day I'm going to still want the things he promised me while he doesn't. I'm scared of losing him and our dream to be together.